Wake up call and disappoinments

Last night on our way home my sweet Isabell gave us a wake up call just by asking questions...
It started with "mom" yes Isabell. "what stage of cancer is daddy in "... That took me back . Then I said he is in change 4 . Isabell said " but mom he went up then because he was in stage 3"... yep honey it did go up but  the chemo is working.

       Why was that conversation important; you see since the last scans we got such  a good report . Such as the cancer cells are down 50 %!!!  You would think that would bring peace and joy right. Yes they have but at the same time we where left in the air.  Questions that took over our mind where..... What is next do we keep planning? Do we start Planning again? How much time do we have?  You see we were living in doomsday for so long. Cory was getting ready to go home. He was even getting a little giddy about it. One night he told me he was feeling guilty that he was happy to go home. He said honey I am going to see JESUS!!!! grandma , grandpa and so many more..... With tears in my eyes I told him I know...I know honey...  Then we got the scans came back and it was good news. Also with a little don't get to happy it can come back and with more.. Agian holding our breath. I think what happened last night is that even our babies are like what is next. How long do we have with daddy? That was her way of asking... I think she also heard daddy saying. "I can not wait to be done going to chemo... " I looked at him and said you can not go there honey remember we don't know how many more we have and this is keeping you alive....  
         I know you would say why the questions just live life.... Ok be a women for one day and try not to plan.... NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!!!!  We live to plan. We plan our time to the end and even at night when everyone is sleeping we are rethink our plans.....

            Here comes the prayer request:
  1. That we stop thinking everything...
2. That we truly enjoy every minute we have even the ugly...
3. That I forgive the people who have not sent letter,call or even called yet...
I am talking about the people who we thought we had a sweet friendship with and Have known us since we where both young...
4. That we are a example to the Girls on what it is to trust God everyday all day...
5. That we keep being a light to the men and women in the Cancer center..

 Thank you all for reading and listening to me talk.. Sometime I just need to write