The path that I would not have picked for myself . But our sweet Lord saw fit to let me walk through. I have a lot of saying around my house . Some are verses some just funny;but if you know me saying me a lot to me. I love to find them and have them all around my house .... lately a lot of them have made me see that I really was getting ready for this storm without knowing. Our sweet Lord gave me the love for these saying because they would help me on the good days and on the hard days.
This past week was a hard one. Cory had his third chemo treatment and before we even left he was already throwing up. Which was so hard to watch. My husband is a man that has always been so strong. Never really complains about pain or has ever really been sick. Then CANCER and all of this change. His strength is gone, his love for food and know his has a look of defeat. This is the hardest thing to look at. Cory knows God is good all the time. I thank the Lord for that but the look of I am tried is overwhelming at times. I think to myself am I being selfish because I am asking him to do this just to buy us more time.... I love my husband he is such a good daddy and he is my best friend but I want him to not have any more pain.
I want him to just enjoy food and not have to beg the Lord for him not to throw up.
This next week is going to be long ..... On Wednesday we have scans and on Thursday we will find out where we stand... That is what we where told before chemo this past Tuesday. I got the feeling of wanting to throw up. FEAR came over me....
"PRAYER CHANGES THINGS" a sweet saying I have in my room.... Thank you Lord for your reminder. All I can do from today till Thursday is pray. All I can ask is for all my friends and family to pray...
Thank you Lord for you sweet blessings in this storm...
" Faith is not knowing what the FUTURE hold but knowing who holds the future" this saying is right by Cory's bed side....
Again a sweet reminder who is holding me through this storm.
Thank you all for your prayers keep them coming
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