Update and Prayer

The path that I would not have picked for myself . But our sweet Lord saw fit to let me walk through. I have a lot of saying around my house . Some are verses some just funny;but if you know me saying me a lot to me. I love to find them and have them all around my house .... lately a lot of them have made me see that I really was getting ready for this storm without knowing. Our sweet Lord gave me the love for these saying because they would help me on the good days and on the hard days. 

This past week was a hard one. Cory had his third chemo treatment and before we even left he was already throwing up. Which was so hard to watch. My husband is a man that has always been so strong. Never really complains about pain or has ever really been sick. Then CANCER and all of this change. His strength is gone, his love for food and know his has a look of defeat. This is the hardest thing to look at. Cory knows God is good all the time. I thank the Lord for that but the look of I am tried is overwhelming at times. I think to myself am I being selfish because I am asking him to do this just to buy us more time.... I love my husband he is such a good daddy and he is my best friend but I want him to not have any more pain.

I want him to just enjoy food and not have to beg the Lord for him not to throw up.

This next week is going to be long ..... On Wednesday we have scans and on Thursday we will find out where we stand... That is what we where told before chemo this past Tuesday. I got the feeling of wanting to throw up. FEAR came over me.... 

"PRAYER CHANGES THINGS" a sweet saying I have in my room.... Thank you Lord for your reminder. All I can do from today till Thursday is pray. All I can ask is for all my friends and family to pray...

Thank you Lord for you sweet blessings in this storm...

" Faith is not knowing what the FUTURE hold but knowing who holds the future" this saying is right by Cory's bed side....

Again a sweet reminder who is holding me through this storm.

Thank you all for your prayers keep them coming 

Cancer a Sweet blessing from God

Yes you read right Cancer a sweet blessing from God....

I didn't think I would ever say those words. I mean we are 31 years old colon cancer stage 4 is not suppose to happen. Cory's a healthy strong man of God.. WHY???  I have had those moments too. More then I would like to say. But the question is why not... as far as the Dr.s have said Cory was born with this. He was going to get colon cancer,and he already had it for 4 years with nothing to show for it. No pain, no bleeding nothing just time with family, time to have Louis, time to be a light at work TIME....  

That is why I think Cancer is a blessing it gives us TIME.....

WHAT?? I know some of you are saying WHAT??? Edith has lost her mind... let's be honest we all listen and say Amen when we here the pastor say "ALL OUR DAYS ARE NUMBERED"..... but do we live that way ...NO!!!! we don't we all think we have tomorrow we have years.But when you get that call to come in and the Dr. says it is aggressive CANCER time is all you see.                           How much time? What do I do with my time? What did I do with my time???

Cancer has MADE Cory and I stop time and ask what really counts?

 Cancer has been a blessing because of a few things so far. One my faith has grown so much God's word has come to life so much more. PRAYER has been such a big part of this walk me praying other people praying. Cancer has been a blessing because of old sweet friend have called ,sent card and follow us on FaceBook. Cancer has been a blessing because worship means so much more. Crying out to God reading his word brings peace, grace, understanding even in this storm that I would of never picked for my self...Cancer has been a blessing because I take time to look at Cory . REALLY LOOK at him. Study him , smell him know him more ,talk, laugh and cry... My sweet  girls have shared with me  "mom Cancer has been a blessing because we don't take for granted the fact that I can hug our daddy". 

For us today we are stopping putting off things like vaction, worship, playing games, hugging, and just being together... Because even though Cory is fighting and trusting we know that his time with us is not as long as we thought... When I said the word " for sickness and in health to death do us part"  11 years ago; I really never thought it would be happening in our 30's I thought when we are both old and grey.... 

Proverbs 3:5-6 the verse that Cory and I both Love...

 " Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart and do not LEAN on your own understanding.6. In ALL your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight..."

How true this verse has been threw this walk.. The ups and the downs I must trust that God is good all the time all the time God is Good...

Live today like your time is counted..