Love is a action word

Love is a action word! We say it to each other or about something with out thinking one thinking about it. But today after talking with my hubby I truly saw love in action... Ok I am going to share and be raw... I need a place I can say what is in on my mind and I know that people will pray for me .... You see Cory has had a break from chemotherapy for about a month now. Not by the Dr.s orders more because he needed to take care of me I had to have surgery for some women stuff. So due to that he had to skip his chemotherapy. I have to say it was nice ... He was back to his old self. Working side jobs redoing my kitchen... You see Cory will keep doing all those things and that is where LOVE comes in. He works through or ignore his headaches, that melt taste you get after chemotherapy, his body aches because of getting his white blood count shot... all to show us LOVE.... I have to say I am so thankful that he is here doing all this but today was hard . He called me and told me that the Dr. said that he is doing ok BUT " no more breaks"..... he said the Dr. said that we need to be careful that his cancer can come back so fast... So why am I fighting going into a pit... I have to say reading all the FB post of all our other friends walking through cancer. They start there path have REALLY bad months even year but then it stops. They get to hug the Dr.s neck and go on with out any more chemotherapy... Please I don't  take what I am say this to be mean in anyway Cory and I celebrate with you all. We cry when we hear that someone got cancer we understand the fear, all the questions that come to your mind... For me it is just hard when I know we are not going to have our last day of treatment party.... More like lets make a party that we made it ... When I write that I feel so ungrateful . I think only people that have something like a disability in some way understand... It is just different . Life in general some days everything is ok  you look at it and say I got this I can do this!!! Then they are days that you are more like Why ???? how can I do this I need you Lord???? That is what I am talking about I am having one of those days. The day that I am so great full that Hubby is here; but I hate what he has to go through to be here. Then truth comes in I know that the Lord has a great plan. I see the blessing in cancer at times. today my thoughts are just in a litte fog... One thing I am so thankful that my kids gets to see the word LOVE in action. They get to see how there daddy keeps going... The way he fight for them and not says a word of complaining. Even though he has every reason to say something... They see that when he is tried he looks up for help. SO thank you Lord even though this is so HARD!!!! Thank you that I am blessed to have a husband that LOVES you and us each day ...