Plan B ~~~~

 Plan B when did this come into play the moment we heard you have cancer... I hate that everything is around that word.  Since that day we are not to say the least "normal" we have to ask the Dr.s about everything even when we go to the dentist.  While with that in mind Cory shared with me something he really wanted. Cory is not some one who asks me for things. A month ago when we where visiting our friends we went to there sunday school and a lady came in with her sweet baby girl. She was so sweet ... Cory looked at me and said " I really want a baby girl" I looked at him with a " you are crazy face" and did not think anything about it.... But then we where in Flordia visiting my sister and the same thing happened again a young sweet family came in and with there baby girl . Cory looked over and said " I want a baby girl"  I was like really. That  was PLAN A  we had planed to have another baby... BEFORE  cancer .  

Here is where today comes to play Cory is doing great maybe we can have a baby right!!! While we went to the Dr. today and asked one of our Dr. she is a young lady who does not even have kids of her own. I said to her Dr. we have a question do you think that we would be able to another baby? She took a deep breath and at that moment our other Dr came in to say Hi. She looked so happy to see him . And said Dr they have a question he looked at her and said you can answer it. Right there Cory and I new the answer was going to be a hard one....  She said guys the answer is NO... To have a baby while having chemo is not a wise thing. The baby can be born with a lot of problems... We new that was mostly likly the answer was NO... but to hear it is something different. She went on to share that even though we got two clear scans we are not out of the woods. Cory will be getting chemo for another year and half then only a three month break and back on again... This was hard to hear.. I was more sad for Cory.  He really wanted this. He was like one more thing that cancer has taken.... We had some time that we needed to speak truth ourselves... We are so very blessed with three beauitful babies. My cup spill over with blessings . I do ask for prayer as closing a chapter is always hard. Pray that we see blessing.  Pray that even though we got a buket of cold water we know who holds our days in his hand. Thank you for all the prayer keep them coming... love you all